So a few facts. Food=amazing. Boring, veggie food=not as amazing as junk food. And it never will be. But there are a few things that I can tolerate. I will eat 2 boiled eggs with coffee for breakfast, as many mangos as I want in between dinner and then a vegetable based dinner. And when I work, I will have a kids cup of lowfat vanilla jampacked with whatever i want, but it will not go past the top. I need to do this, and I need to do it now. My period is almost over, so that means I need to start weighing myself too. I will also walk an hour everyday and do obliques every other day. I will report back tomorrow.
Also, no food after nine. EVER. Okay?

So I have a confession to make. Today, I broke it. I was doing great; I had a cup of veggie soup and an artichoke for lunch. Soon, however, I ate a few handfuls of baked cheetos, and then a shitton of nutter butters, and some cereal. I just had a small soy patty too, but that is good so I figure it doesn't count. Why did I? Because I was bored, presumably. I need to find better occupiers of my time, and I need to realize this was one instance of a slip up and nothing more. I am getting back on track right now; tomorrow will be good, it will be 2 boiled eggs again, 2 mangos probably, my eggplant dish and some other veggie dish for lunch.

OK? OK. I have work tonight; it will be the first of many times of just having a sugarfree jones for my regular. I can do this! I can TOTALLY do this. Okay. Okay.

today has been great.
Breakfast
2 eggs-150
1 egg white-40
1 mango-140
2 cups coffee w/ sf creamer-100

430. and thennnn a huge artichoke for lunch, and some fruit before work.
i'll update when i come home.

ROLL CALL:

2 eggs-150
1 mango-130
coffee w/ sweetner- 60
1 cosi salad w/ ff balsamic dressing-250
1 eggplant-150
1 tsp brown sugar, soy sauce-60
1/2 cored pineapple-220


1020. Extremely spicy food+exotic fruits=fullness. I think I'll get another eggplant tomorrow and some more pineapple or mango. I'm on my period so I won't weigh myself until it's over in another week. Ciao

so far today-

2 eggs-150
coffee-10
1/2 cup sliced strawberries-60
28 spears asparagus-86
drizzled w/ 4 tbsp balsamic-40
1 medium mango-130
1 small mango- 120
2 eggplants-260
1 tbsp olive oil-120
2 tsps brown sugar-25
2 wylers light-20
spices, basil, extra spray-150
2 circles pineapple-50

1221, with a 40 minute walk in. coo. Ahhhh so full. I think today went well; perhaps I will do a weigh in on Thursday morning so I can get an accurate assessment ( a LOT of salt today). It amazes me how full I can feel on all veggies and fruits. I love it. Well I'll tty tomorrow.

So I've decided to embark on a culinary adventure of sorts. No preservatives or processed food, and only one diet pop a day until I can ween myself off of it. Black coffee in the morning with 2 eggs; 1 exotic fruit for snack, 1 prepared vegetable for lunch, another fruit for snack, and another prepared veggie for dinner.

Breakfast: 160
Tomorrow:
2 fruits: 1 guava, another one I have not tried from Papa Joes (300)
2 vegetables:

Lunch: Roasted asparagus (60)
sprayed with olive oil spray, sea salt +fresh pepper

Dinner: Roasted eggplant with Thai Sauce::
1 Chinese Eggplants ( thin, long purple eggplants)- chopped into thin fingers. (130)
25-30 Basil leaves chopped
1 Tbsp Sambal Oelek
4 cloves of Garlic- chopped
1/2 Tbsp Soy Sauce (4)
1/2 tsp Brown Sugar (7)
Salt as per taste
1 Tbsp Olive Oil (120)
Lemon rinds of 1 Lemon


Nice! I'll let you know how they taste. ciao

Today so far:
2 eggs-150
1 egg white-30
1 tbsp parmesean-60
2 cups coffee-100
1 wylers light-10
1 bag kettle korn-260

610. Then a smoothie at work and I'm done. Walk before work, and weigh in tomorrow. Ciao!

So a few new ground rules for the OFFICIAL start day tomorrow:
-No Thai. -No cake! -No candy. -No Ice Cream. -No alcohol (for the time being). -No cereal. -No crackers. -No pretzels. -No chips! -No skipping weigh ins, walks or abs. -No sleep less than 9 hours a night.

Tomorrow:
Breakfast
2 eggs, 1 egg white
w/ some form of veggie in there
espresso w. 1 shot soymilk +sf syrup

Snack
1 bag kettle korn

dinner
something with an obscene amount of veggies, preferably a salad if im hungry

After smoothie dinner
1 banana
w/ 6 oz each blueberries+raspberries


and a walk of course tomorrow! ciao ill update

First, today so far:

Breakfast
2 eggs, 1 egg white- 180
1/2 green pepper-35
2 cups coffee, w/ 6 tsps creamer-100

Snack
1 pack almonds-240
10 pretzel crisps-110

565 total so far.
I'm proud. I just ate 10 pretzel crisps and put the bag down, which is perhaps more of an accomplishment than not eating them at all. Today I weighed myself, and I was 143.5. Which is really good. I thought I'd be wayyyy more, but I guess not. 23.5 pounds is not a lot to lose; some people have ONE HUNDRED and 23.5 pounds to go. Haha. I'll update tomorrow again with my weight.


Yesterday was amazing. I did so good at my friend's bday; I turned down bread, alcohol and cake later on. I had a chopped salad for dinner (it had feta in it, but it kept me full, so I'm not bitching), with balsamic sauce on the side (I used less than half of it). I had espresso for dessert and a sugarfree redbull later on, and some gum. Gum is good. It keeps me from wanting anything else, which is good.


At dinner there was this annoying girl who lost weight (basically, come from a bigger size to slightly bigger than me. Her legs still touch though, haha). She kept making an issue of what she was going to order, and then said that she doesn't drink diet pop anymore, or coffee, or anything but water. I love diet pop. I enjoyed mine at dinner. You cannot take that away from me, lol.

It was weird telling myself that I can't have what I want anymore, at least until my friend comes. She called me when i was in a store, and we talked about how we're gonna eat cake batter. Haha. I guess I will only eat poorly when she is around, but it's the most fun then. She's coming in the middle of july, so I still have some time to lose before she gets here. I KNOW that she's lost weight at college. I want to look good!

Well I need to get off to blogging and then drop my friend's gift off at her house and then go on a walk. I'll update later. Wow I love this. I love knowing that I'm making a positive change for myself and that I CAN do it. One good example is last night. Ciao.

SOOoOOOoOOOo. So. I need a long term solution. My last three posts have been about the same thing. I remember when I successfully lost weight before, I planned out my meals, always ate breakfast, worked out, weighed myself regularly, and didn't eat anything at work. I think I'm gonna go back to that. And if I get really serious about this, I may get partially to my goal by the official start of the summer. I'm going to eat carbs. I'm going to eat fruit. I just need to do it a responsible way. I can't just sit down with a bag of chips or crackers or ice cream and do what I want. I have to be responsible. I have to take responsiblity and control and realize that my success lies with me and me alone. I need to start having the same meals over and over. It's going to be hard. I can't eat what I want anymore, but I can eat food that will treat my body right and satisfy me. I think I'm OK with that.

Tomorrow,
Breakfast
2 eggs w/ 1 egg white
spinach
espresso w/ sf syrup

snack
1 packet almonds
1 16 oz smoothie w/ 1 banana, blueberries, raspberries, strawberries

dinner
salad w/ light dressing
ONE BITE OF CAKE. (yep).
No alcohoL!
and an hour of walking before work, as per usual. Right now I'm gonna do my abs, and then take a bath and go to bed. I'm tired. I don't need to do triceps; they make my arms to big. As does running. Walking and abs are the best. Ciao. I promise I'll weigh myself Sunday morning. Ciao.

So I had an ephiphany of sorts today on my walk. FOOD isn't dragging me down, per se, but rather, toxic crap is. Yes, it is good to indulge in a craving once in a while when I cannot resist, but for the most part I should be striving to pump my body full of organic nutrients that benefit me and make me feel great. In addition, walking 3.5 miles a day won't help either, and, while I can fit more tiny walks into my day (like today), I shouldn't worry if I go above that. So far, I went on a 3.5 mile walk and had a Kombucha, and plan on having an Inn Season salad today after class (a huge, fresh, healthy, organic creation) and then just water, water, water the rest of the day. As for tomorrow, another walk, 2 eggs for breakfast with spinach, an all-fruit smoothie at work, and a kombucha afterwards.

Ahh.

So, I think that I fumbled my new way of eating a little, and instead of eating what I want, I eat what I crave- which can be dangerous. Today I am on a Kombucha fast, which means 2 of the drinks plus plenty of water. Tomorrow I will have a breakfast of 2 eggs, with 1 fruit smoothie midday and then a kombucha for dinner, plus a 7 mile walk before work (today I'm doing roughly 4). I need to get extra slim for Saturday night; that means Saturday morning a Kombucha, no food throughout the day until a salad at night.


Ciao.

Tomorrow:
breakfast- tall americano from starbucks, post-run, with sf syrup.

Lunch-large diet coke, 32 oz.

in between-water,water,water.

dinner-sf jones black cherry soda

Today so far:

2 eggs-150
2 soy links-80
3 toasts-240
1/2 cup strawberries-60
coffee-50
soy patty-70
1 bun-140
lettuce, onion, tomato, pickle, ketchup-70
1 banana drizzled with honey-150


and an hour of walking- -216.

witthhh a salad or a few slice pizza tonight. heck, take that back, i'll walk for another 40 minutes tonight if i eat the pizza. ciao.

weigh in tomorrow.

So I just went for another walk- 50 minutes! To a total of 90 minutes walking today. I just remembered when I hit 123, at the beginning of junior year, and how good it felt. I was doing a lot of walking then. I think that it is really possible to get there again, with some patience and love for myself.

soo yeah. ill weigh on wednesday and update then. ciao.

EDIT: I definitely don't think that I'm doing dinner tonight, only because I am not hungry. So this is what I've had today:

Breakfast
2 soy sausage links
2 eggs
2 slices wheat toast

After work
probably about a medium size ice cream

in between: water, 2 packets crystal lite, a few bites of candy at work.


ANd now off to do walking!

So I decided something today. That, whenever, I try to subvert a craving by replacing it with shittier food, (or "healthier") I ALWAYS eat 100 times more than I would if I had just eaten the damn food. So, today I ate some Ice Cream after work, and it was delicious. I haven't had anything since, and I'm not craving any shitty stale cereal or massive amounts of toast. I also walked 40 minutes (and plan to walk 20 more after dinner) for a total of 60 minutes. That's waht I'm doing now, 60 minutes of exercise every day, and eating whatever I want twice a day. With abs/arms every other day. It's working great. Mentally, I feel amazing.

I'll post tomorrow.

So, I just made my first victory. Well, second, if you count last night. This morning I had 2 eggs (without salt!) scrambled with 1 soy breakfast patty, about a cup and a half of strawberries, and some raw veggies dipped in hummus. I was soooo tempted to have cereal, but I stopped myself. I can eat whatever I want, just as long as it is fresh, unprocessed, and healthy. I've had 2 cups of green tea in lieu of my coffee, and I'm feeling good.

Today @ Work? Maybe I'll bring a small pouch of almonds to eat right after work, and the rest of the veggies that I bought too, and I'll get a sugarfree jones for a snack right before my walk right after work. But, like other things, this takes work, and I'm prepared and capable of doing it. I'll post later when I know what I had tonight. Ciao.

So my new focus is on gentle nutrition and loss. I want to walk for an hour everyday; I want to eat whatever I want, and just make sure that they fit within the 1200 range. I want to keep on doing my abs, and be comfortable in my bikini walking around and laying out. I'm burning a Jack Johnson CD right now; I love the ukele-open screen door-thing. I really just want to be as relaxed as possible, take care of my body and have a positive view of myself. Nutrition should be something that I look to positively, as a tool.

Tomorrow:

Breakfast
2 whole eggs
1 cup sliced strawberries
green tea

Lunch
sandwhich with 2 slices whole grain bread
1 soy patty 70
lettuce, tomato, onion
1 kids cup raspberries

Snack, 2 hours later
1 small package almonds

715 until dinner. Before work I'm going to walk.

andd i don't know what's going to be for dinner yet. i'll have to post then. ciao.

So now is do or die. Pot of piping coffee for breakfast, with sugarfree creamer. Next is 32 oz of diet liquid for lunch, and celery as a snack. Dinner? Must be before 7 and can be a tub of nonfat, sugarfree yogurt (360). 7.4 mile run tomorrow, with abs too.

Same goes for Sunday. Monday morning, first thing, step my cracked feet on the gas shard in my bathroom. Then find my self worth. And post immediately.